ok so yesterday we went out to lake elsinore cuz my cousin bought a house out there a while ago and him and his wife were throwing a house warming party or whatever right? so we go and it takes us likea million years to get there. i was like oh my goodness we are NEVER gonna get there right. it was funny cuz it started at 2 and we didnt leave our house till like 345.lol. we are so freakin mexican its not even funny. anyways so we get there like at 5 and there was only like 5 people there. i actually felt kinda bad cuz they invited like the whole family and only a few people showed up. but anyways, we get there all hungry and whatnot and thank God they have carne asada! :) it was so freakin gooooooood!! i never knew this but it is likea million degrees colder out there!! but they got a rockin view of the mountains! it was sooo nice! i felt like i was standing in the wallpaper on the computer! you know the blue one with the mountains in the background?!?! anwaaaay so while we were driving out there all i could think about was chris. me and sof were like how the heck did they make this drive EVERYDAY?!?!? it took so freakin long it wasnt even funny! it made me sad to think about him cuz i havent talked to him in sooo long! i remember the times when he used to call me EVERY SINGLE freakin day. like literally everyday. there wouldnt be a day i wouldnt talk to him. its funny cuz we wouldnt ever talk about like deep stuff. we would sit there and talk ALL day about the stupidest stuff. it was fun we would talk about my friends boyfriend and how he didnt like him. i remember before he had a myspace i would sit there and ask him the questions on the questionaires that people would post on bullitens and he would always give me the dumbest answers then i would answer them... oh fun times... then he went off to bootcamp in texas.. oh man i remember how hard it was for me. i still remember the day like it was yesterday... he called me to say bye and i cried like i baby.. he was telling me about how he might go to afganistam and oh man that killed me... i missed him soooo much it wasnt even funny.. i rememer the first letter i got from him from bootcamp!! i was soo happy i read it like a million times cuz i could hear his voice saying the things he was writing in his dumb little voice.lol. when he came back he was only here for a while then was going to get sent to alaska... that was a heart breaker for me cuz who the heck lives in alask right!??! so anyways to make the story short (er) a few months into his new alaskan life, he meets this girl on myspace. i was shocked cuz i always remember talking smack to him about what i though about meeting people on there. he was like i really like her whatever. i was happy for him cuz i wanted him to be happy. he came down... i wanna say...uhhh maybe a year and a half ago maybe 2 years, and we didnt hang out till like the day before he left. and that was only because he was hangin out with one of my other friends and i was like aww lucky i wanna see him but i didnt have a ride out to see them so they came to my house. i was surprised cuz i didnt expect them to come but there they were. i was soo happy to see him cuz it had been a while. he had been so busy with worl up in Alaska that i hadnt talked to him in a while. the only thing that i was really pissed at him for was, he had been here for a week or something i dont remember but he didnt hangout with any of us because he was with his dumb little lady friend, i was kinda pissed at that but i got over it cuz i was so happy to see him. we hung out at my place for a while and had some fun. when it came time to say bye i was super sad cuz i knew i wasnt gonna see him for a long time and he was gonna be goin to Iraq in a few weeks. that was the hardest thing for me, to think that he was going to be in iraq in a couple of months made me crazy cuz i knew he would be in danger. so he's gonw for about i wanna say 6 months and we keep in touch by texts and stuff for about maybe a month then i just lose total connection with him. he stops texting me or calling me. he had told me about his little lady friend and how they were planning on getting married and whatnot. take in mind that he had only known this girl in real life for like 1 or 2 weeks. i was happy for him cuz i wanted him to be happy and he was. he swore to me that it was gonna bw so awesome and i would love her blah blah blah. i didnt talk to him for i wanna say 6 to 8 months/ on may 16 of this year i remember being out to dinner with some of my friends from high school that would all hang out with this guy and stuff and i asked one of them if they had heard anything about chris. she was like yea by the way hes getting married tomorrow....i was like WTF??!?!?!?! i was utterly and completely shocked. first of all i though he had only invited her, i was like whatever it didnt really bother me, but then she said that she wasnt even invited. i was kinda mad cuz he had always swore to us that we would be there the dy he did get married. his excuse was that he wanted to keep it small and whatever. i understand that but there was only like 5 of us that would have gone. i was like shoot i wouldnt have eaten i just wanted to be there to see him get married. well that was the last i heard of him. He's back in Alaska with his wife...Ugh i will never get used to saying that... and im here thinking about him and missing him.... i wrote this poem for my english class for him...
MISSING YOU
I MISS THE LITTLE THINGS
THE TALKS, THE HUGS
YOUR VOICE FIRST THING IN THE MORNING
OUR DUMB JOKES AND POINTLESS CONVERSATIONS
THEY ALL MEANT MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW
IT WAS THE LITTLE THINGS THAT MADE ME FEEL SPECIAL
LIKE YOU CARED AND I WAS THE BEST FRIEND YOU EVER HAD
IT ALL HAPPENED SO FAST
THEN IT WAS ALL OVER
EVERYTHING THAT I LOVED ABOUT YOU; SHE CHANGED
YOU LEFT AND NEVER LOOKED BACK
BUT I NEVER FORGOT
I SIT AND THINK OF WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN
BUT IT IS TOO LATE
IT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME
